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today.....
suddenly a word 'friend' appears in my mind....
n when i was driving, my fren oso suddenly say 'tat is a fren should do'....
but this F R I E N D word keep troubling n spinning around my head after tat...
i keep asking myself....what kind of ppl can categorized as a friend, best friend or even buddies/sister.....
if a person tat u think is fren wat is d maximum thg tat thy can do it 4 u???? it comes same 2 best fren n buddies/sister....

so at here, i wanna ask somebody o u tat r seeing my blog nw....wat is d meaning of a fren n fren is 4 wat d???? i think every1 gt their own understanding of tis kind of relationship call friendship....
if u dun mind...thn can share with me....

n another question is about myself......
for u(who seing my blog now), wat do u think about me???? am i a gud fren, bestfren o sister????

just wanna noe wat ppl think of me although i owez say i din care hw the way others look at me o think of me....but nw i suddenly become so sensitive and wanna noe bout it.....hahahaha.......
mayb i just wanna noe wat kind of person am i in others ppl mind....hehe...

am i 'GOOD??? BAD???? NICE???? o others????' .........

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siting here in front of my laptop, doin nothing lol.....
owez feel very sien whn stay at hostel mostly after d dinner time!!!!
OMG!!!! WAT A STUPID WEIRD GAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

somethg is pushing me nw...but dunno wat...myb stress...hehe...i will never noe wat i am thinking day by day...haih...mayb someday i think i will push myself into trouble lol..mayb become "chee sin" oso gt d probability...

somebody can come n goyang me n made me clear of wat i wan d ma???? cz i think i really will goind crazy if continue lik think... every day lik nothing happen but in deeply in my heart lik gt a heavy stone on in making me very difficult to breath... especially when im alone o in d middle of nite....

plus more in malacce, dun hv any 1 suitable place 4 me 2 shout lol....i really miss my hometown MIRI so much...n my fren there tat can listen to wat im talking.. i ned a gud listener lo... i find tat it is hard to find a real,trustworthy and a gud listener fren....

bla bla bla...i oso dunno wat im writing nw...feel very complicated in my mind n heart...
SHIT!!!!!! wat a damn mind!!!!! so terrible feeling..... i goin to be crazy soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ps: don be a gud person to ppl n dun 2 to mind about ppl thinking of u o hw thy treat u lol.... tis will heart urself nia d.....so i wanna bcme a cruel person strt from nw......hahahahahahaahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaha

"放开那些事与愿违 放开那些是是非非 转过身已走远.."

"不敢问却一直想问 你心里藏着什么人 不敢猜却一直想猜"

share a bit of my photo(2)

at miri........


celebrating rui yih's birthday at "sport cafe" a nice place....hehe

at "season ktv"@ banana's b'day

with anther leng lui='cactus'
yummy baked cheese rice....leeting!!! ur mouth really big la...hahaha

share a bit of my photo...(1)

my dear PIg jie jie....hehehe....is a very leng pig lo...hahahaha
miss da day went out wif her so much...although she owez bla bla bla....better thn silent...

jalan2 cari makan at malacca with a part of FKP's gals

with my anther sis...panda sis...hahahaha...
oppsss...dun say 2 loud...shhhh...


yeahhh....here comes d process gals....beauty,beauty n lastly cutie...hahaha




still gt many pic...hehe...to b continue d...hehe

who cares wat i feel...

if every1 say do u care bout some1's feeling, wat are the 1st thing that will occur in ur mind???? it seems lik a simple question that u can directly answer "yes,i got" or "nope,i doesn't care at all"....both of the answer will give a suspen to the ppl who ask u d question.

for me,i maybe will answer "does it a matter tat i care o not?? cz if i say care, there is very sure got someone will say tat "really??? why i never think so?" or "huh?? u will care about others feeling d meh???" mostly will heard a sentence lik tat.. ooh GOSH!!!! this is wat so ever call human thinking....

sometimes, when there is a time tat u really wanna show that u really care bout 1 person feeling but u will scare later u use the wrong way and this can cause mistake...so,it is a difficult choice to care o not care bout a person feelings...

there is another cases where u really care about a person feeling which when the person either in a happy o moody, u can c the situation n decide hw 2 communicate with thm.. but somehow, thy will dunno..bcz human are selfish..thy just think bout themselves is owez the right one n u r owez d wrong one. anther cases where, u care d person feeling, but the person owez will dunno wat r u feel right nw.. thy doesn't realize that u r happy, sad, o in trouble.. oh ya...mayb tis kind of situation can b analyze as the person not really treat u good n doesnot care on u at all...so u can just save ur time and energy from caring about such a person...just love urself a bit more....


that's is wat all i think until now...maybe i am also a very selfish person...i admit it...cz in this world who din selfish??? n i just can say tat take care of others ppl feeling really made a person so damn tired.. who can teach me bcme a really cool person???? hahaha.....
or my i ask a stupid n silly question????
" does there any ppl really care bout what i think until now?"


by d way, i think this song gt a few sentences that really say out wat i feel in this time......

“你让我一夜长大
见识到人性真假
想说的话找不到人说话
风静静吹着我的心 成流沙。。”

a nice song by desiree tan...