feel empty....no mood

new semester already start for 2 weeks. in this 2 weeks i feel nothing and also doesn't have the mood 2 study. don't know why i feel like i looking for something but i dunno what it is. maybe i need someone 2 tell me what it is or i need 2 spend some time 2 figure it out. i also got a feel like i'm very useless in that moment. oh GOD!!!!! can u please send somebody 2 help me?? i always dunno where is my problem! i hope the person that really knew me will appear soon so that i will not such in a trouble.. where are u?? are u already stand beside me?? huh....

that day got 1 of my friend ask me are my heart still pain or not, and at that time i said "no"...

but she didn't believe it...i have nothing to say at that moment.

but after that i realize that i still got a bit hurt even now i writing this thing,i still feel like wan to cry it out but i cannot.."maybe it is because i listen to sad song so i feel like wanna cry" i think it is a very normal reaction 2 everyone coz don't want to let people to see our tears..hahaha...

now i start 2 miss my mum and dad at my hometown. dunno why this time i will got such a feel.

maybe is worry about them at there coz nobody will remind them to do this and that.. and the time when i always scold them(not a good daughter ho).

i miss u so much!!! hope u people will very fine at there!

hope i will find out my study mood very soon!!!! and it is better if got people can scold me so that i will wake up early 2 concentrate at my study and not playing around so much!!!!

GAMBATEH!!!!!!!