"SAD"

this year was my first year celebrating my chinese new year without my family and all my dear friends at miri. of coz this was make me feel very unhappy and dissapointed coz this year all my friends study at other places went back to hometown 2 celebrate new year. i can imaging how was the new year going at hometown when all my friends visiting others house and take their 'angpau'.. i celebrate my new year at my roomate grandpa's house this year.. got a bit not really 'biasa' coz not my own house..hahaha..but anyway i still feel their happiness especially childrens... their new year were very crowd coz all their relatives came back 4 few days.. just can said is my unexpected cny 4 this year...

1 week holiday 4 cny goes very fast...& i ned 2 start my days with study, study and STUDY.....

did anyone will feel sad suddenly without any reason??? coz my situation now is like that while writing this blog... can anyone tell me why will like that? any reason? huh...

sometimes maybe because of many things that suddenly come in 1 time make me feel uncomfortable.. if got chance i really want to dissapear so that no people can find me and i not need 2 think of so many things..dissapear 1 day also enough, but i know this will not happen in my real life..coz i need 2 be a very responsible person which cannot just leave over all those things like that..

become a human is fake, become a good daughter and sister is responsible,become a nice friend is a problem, become a student is my job, actually become a human is really DIFFICULT!!!!!

anyway, i hope everything in this new year, new life, new day and new time will go smoothly!!!!!

wish every one dreams come true and stay healthy in this year 2009 especially my family and friends!!!!

once again HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR and CHAP GOH MEH 2 everyone!