cnt sleep....insomia..

1st time: before this i just feel wanna somebody give me a hug in the morning... dunno y...just a sudd feel.... at nite, i told my roommate that at morning i suddenly wanna hug from ppl, thn she just ask me y???? i oso dunno... but at last b4 she go sleep, she giv me a hug...haha...although is just 4 a few seconds...but it's made me feel warmly, n safety i think... hahaha.....by de way, thanks 4 ur hug my dear roommate although made me bcme a pipe after that..hehe....but i feel nice...

2nd time: i just sleep 4 2 hours at noon n i though that i could sleep oso at nite cz i owez can sleep well although gt many thgs ned 2 solve...but tat day....something goin wrong on me.... at nite, i plan wanna sleep cz i feel tired...but whn i lay on my bed 4 about 20minutes, i felt that i cant sleep at all...thn i told my mate, she oso feel de same....but we also switch off the light n try to sleep...we just chating so tat can chat until tired but dunno y i sudd very emotional... mayb becoz of tis few weeks feel very sad n stress or watever.... tis is the longest time in my life tat my tears drop down uncontrolable until even i myself cnt stop it...i think it has remain until 1 hour lik tat... i try to ask myself to stop but it doesnt help although i tried to think of anythg more happy n relaxing situation... at last it stop n i feel very tired n my mate oso accompany me until my situation calm down although she sleep above me while i sitting below the double storybed... just feel 'paiseh' to her cz making she feel uncomfortable n accompany me the whole nite although she just asking 'are u ok oledi' n just quiet there without saying anythg....just thanks.....

anyway...
just hope i can try my best to be happy....hehe...
although i just try to cover my tears behind it....
hope any1 that i had been hurt by me when i doin sth o say sth will forgive my attitude during tis time...mayb just few ppl of it...hehehehe......